Chu MuYun agreed to Zero’s strategy request because he had something he wanted.
Ever since he could remember, he had been longing for it.
Maybe it shouldn’t be said as a thing, just a ‘truth’.
Chu MuYun wanted to know who he was. What kind of ‘thing’ he was.
On Earth, in the 21st century, everyone, even orphans, have biological parents, but he doesn’t.
He seemed to appear out of nowhere, and with self-awareness that he was an adult. He had all the common sense he needed, he knew how to live and so took control of his life with ease.
The world was huge, with many wonderful things, and endless novelties… It seems that as long as you think about it, you can find countless stimuli.
Sex, adventure, conquest, climbing to the top, and even extreme sports that took one to the brink of life and death, there is always something that can arouse the desire in the heart and find the value of living and make you fear death.
But Chu MuYun didn’t feel this.
Everything was too easy for him: if he wanted money, it was at his fingertips. What was the challenge? Conquering nature, crossing the Sahara, traveling around the world… oh, he hasn’t had time to go to outer space yet.
But what was the point? Everything he did seemed to be pointless.
It seemed that he only lived twenty to thirty years, but at the same time it also seemed that he lived countless twenty to thirty years old lives, constantly looking for excitement, constantly disappointed and confused.
So, even at the moment of the car accident, he was extremely calm, calculating the amount of bleeding and thinking indifferently that he was dead.
There was no despair when you die, no surprises when you live.
The only thing that touched his heart was Zero’s words: If you can complete the task, you will get what you want.
What I want… is to know who I really am and what I’m missing.
And now, everything was slowly unfolding.
Through the Demon World, another part of his life was reflected.
Perhaps here, he can find his true self.
The one who was lost, who even forgot himself.
Chu MuYun was a smart person, so smart that he could judge all possibilities as accurately and ruthlessly as a machine.
He could imagine that that period of his life must not have been very good and it is very likely that he gave up his memories willingly. He really shouldn’t try to get it back and maintaining the status quo is the best.
From the existing partial memories, he can also analyze that he has put his heart into those children, and even has a deep love for them, but they all ended in tragedy.
For no discernable reason there was an abrupt abandonment which stimulated them and severely injured himself.
Some truths are best forgotten.
Examples of this are too numerous to enumerate: climbing the long-awaited Bright Moon Palace but finding that it was full of pits and freezing cold; exploring the wonderful deep-sea Dragon Palace but finding it was just a dark, empty, cold, infinitely terrifying abyss of hell…
But people can’t get rid of a cycle of cause and effect. Even if they knew what was coming up, they can’t escape even if they wanted to. Even if they clearly know that the flames will burn their body, they can’t wait to jump into it after becoming extremely cold.
Chu MuYun was extremely cold, so although he knew that it would burn him, he still wanted to go in.
Thinking about it another way, it’s actually nothing. If he can give up once, he can give up twice and, if he looks again, he can still do it a third time. But isn’t life just like this? Seeking, getting, losing, craving, going round and round, round and round until consciousness disappears.
So Chu MuYun chose to take up the strategy.
To this day, he had already learned a lot. At this moment, when Jun Mo smiled in a sickly manner and said cruel words, he remembered the deeper meaning in the words of being “abandoned from beginning to end”.
Jun Mo… was indeed given up by him from the beginning to the end.
Chu MuYun still couldn’t tell the exact order of raising each of them, but it was obvious that Mo JiuShao was the first one and Jun Mo was the last one.
After experiencing the paranoid Yan Chen and the domineering Shen ShuiYan, Chu MuYun treated Jun Mo very cruelly.
He simply abandoned him.
Throwing him in a place where people come and go, and then not asking about him.
After experiencing so many failures, Chu MuYun was just acting according to his experience but this method made people feel powerless to fight back, completely as though he didn’t understand human affairs.
With the experience of raising Shen ShuiYan, Chu MuYun knew very well that he would become soft-hearted if he secretly watched them, so he just stopped watching.
After all, you can’t die. When you grow up and your mind is stable, then I’ll teach slowly, it is much better than remaining by your side since childhood.
Because Chu MuYun believed that it was precisely because he spent too much time with each one, and because he was the only one to be in contact with them since they were children, that caused them to become overly dependent on him and any emotion that was too extreme would transition to an abnormal emotion.
He didn’t want to make the same mistakes again, so Chu MuYun became cruel this time.
Let Jun Mo live in the world, and refrained from seeing him even once.
But when Chu MuYun went to find him again, he realized what a huge mistake he had made.
With his physique, he cannot live in the general population.
At first, he just grew slowly. Ordinary human beings have grown up after more than ten years but Jun Mo at ten years old, still looks like a three-year-old baby.
Abnormality is a demon. A child who will not grow up, no matter how good-looking and cute he is, was destined to be feared and rejected by others.
Coupled with Jun Mo’s unique hair color and eye color. Such a child carved in powder and jade was literally called a monster and ghost.
The words “monster child” accompanied Jun Mo throughout his long childhood.
Thirty years later, he grew into the appearance of others who were seven or eight years old; another thirty years later, he was only in his teens. It took nearly two hundred years for him to grow into a young man.
But he was completely regarded as a monster.
What is full of tragedy is that Jun Mo’s body is no different from that of ordinary people. He was not particularly powerful or strong: he will be hungry and thirsty if he does not eat or drink, he will get sick if he is cold in winter, and he will suffer from heat stroke if he is overheated in summer… other than growing slowly, he waa an ordinary person, no…he was not even as good as an ordinary person, because he has no father or mother, no one cares about him and around him were only those who are uneasy, pitiful and malicious
Moreover, during those thirty years of infancy, he was just an ordinary child. He might have matured a little earlier in his mind but his body was so weak. A three-year-old child lived so hard for such a long time. It was hard to imagine.
The long two hundred years was a huge torture from beginning to end for Jun Mo.
He knows that he doesn’t belong here, he knows that he has been abandoned, and he also knows that no one likes him, but he still lives stubbornly, waiting for someone whom he doesn’t know will come or not.
When Chu MuYun finally came to see him and realized what Jun Mo had gone through, the overwhelming guilt made him pick him up without even thinking about it.
— This was a mistake.