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As she stroked Kaito’s head as he slept on her lap, Illness thought in a daze.
(What…… am I doiiiiing? Haven’t IIIIIIIIII been a bit too aggressive this tiiiiiiiime?)
Such a matter was something she asked herself. The reason she asked herself that question was because, from the very beginning of the day, Illness had been feeling a bit mentally strange herself.
It all started when she heard about the Flying Board Competition from Kaito.
Kaito’s victory and the fact that he was able to enjoy the Flying Board Competition really made her happy, as if his happiness was her own. But at that moment, a thought slightly sprouted in her heart. She wanted to directly see Kaito’s gallant figure herself……
(Whaaaaat a sudden thouuuuuught. I alsoooooo want to go somewhere with Kaito-samaaaaa…… I’m really surprised at the depth of my own desiiiiiiiiires.)
Since Illness is basically in charge of running the mansion in Lilia’s absence, she had little experience going somewhere with Kaito.
It’s not that she hadn’t experienced that at all, but even so, she has never had the opportunity to go out together to a place where they would have to stay overnight. Such a thing isn’t strange, for Illness isn’t Kaito’s lover.
However, her mind accepting something and her heart accepting something are two different things. Illness couldn’t deny that she had a desire in her heart to go on a trip together with Kaito.
(……What a difficult matter this iiiiiiis. I’m sure that if I speak out this desire of miiiiine, Kaito-sama would kindly accept iiiiiiit. He might even invite meeeeee to go out somewhere with hiiiiiiiim…… That’s why it’s so hard for me to say it ouuuuuut…… Worrying because the person I love is too kiiiiiiind, what a strange thing this iiiiiiiis.)
In fact, just as Illness had thought, if Illness said she wanted to go on a trip with him, Kaito would agree without a second thought. Illness herself knows this…… Precisely because she knows that that she couldn’t bring herself to say it, worried of troubling Kaito.
Still, the change in Illness’ mindset is at a level that can be said to be a feat. She was a Devotion Monster. She, who doesn’t see anything regarding herself, her thoughts only filled with devotion to dedicate herself for the service of others…… In a sense, she’s a monster with an abnormal mind.
However, even though it was little by little, she had recently started to think “I want to do something with Kaito”. She begins to desire for a future with Kaito.
[Kaito-samaaaaa, how are you feeliiiiiing?]
[Ahh, errr, it feels pretty good…… that I feel like this could become a habit.]
[Kuhihi, is that so…… I don’t knooooow if you’re talking about the lie-down bath or the pilloooooow, but it’s okay if it becomes a habiiiiiiit. I’ll always be with Kaito-sama wheneeeeeeeever you want.]
Seeing Kaito lying comfortably on her lap warms up her heart. At the thought of sharing time together with him, she felt a strange sense of excitement deep in her heart.
(What happineeeeess. Making Kaito-sama feel comfortable like thiiiiiis, being able to look at him thiiiiiiiis close…… That this was because of myyyyy actions makes me helplessly happyyyyy. Knowing that myyyyyy actions are making Kaito-sama happy…… What happineeeeess.)
To put it in an extreme way, if she were to be asked if support was really needed when bathing in the Relaxation Room, she herself would tilt her head at that. She was aware that washing his body was the most she could do, and other than that was her just being a bit pushy.
However, the desire to do something for Kaito just seemed to overpower her.
(Considering the suitable time for bathiiiiiing, it would be betteeeeeer to encourage him to leave in about 5 minuuuuutes. It’s a bit regrettableeeee, but I should take Kaito-sama’s body as higher priorityyyyy. After thaaaaat, I’ll prepare him drinks in the rest rooooooom, so I suppooooose I could spend a bit more time with him while he’s relaxiiiiiing.)
While thinking about her future plans, in order to enjoy this time of happiness, Illness touched Kaito’s head again and gently caressed it.
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